Do You Know Why You’re Here?

nancy viva davis Halifax, School of Health Policy & Management

York University

nhalifax [at] yorku [dot] ca

DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU’RE HERE ?

outside a red brick building a bright

late summer day            people kept

cancelled                               part of

re-development           inside a room

inside the building are a dog & a woman

the dog leans       the woman's hands rest

beneath the dog's harness    people

try to find       remember before

they are called to enter the long &

narrow rooms where men sit by closed

windows & patient

chairs sit close to doors        

when their turn is called

the woman & the dog slowly walk the hall

the man gestures : sit    introduces himself

the woman sits on the close-to-the-door

easywash brown plastic patient chair & the dog leans   

“do you know why you’re here?” he asks & the woman knows

the question is not alone or hers   

she is not sure                    her mother  

a colour                  she no longer

remembers

his answer          

 

in a room    unbroken

by light  

               curled into a restless ball

beside      the dog 

left in a room          the woman  

thinks something  

“my doctor referred me”

something       this man

could give her         

a harness    compounds would                     adhere             

her neurons      pharmaceuticals    

 

metabolized & excreted

unregulated  

               she remembers some forget her   

                         as she passes through

 

“do you know why you’re here ?”

the dog rises

clambers across her knees

leans against her

 

heart     their chests rise & fall    

“do you know why you’re here?”