Loose Leaf


  • Lindsay Eales Faculty of Physical Education and Recreation University of Alberta




Mad studies, Mad performance, Psychiatrization, Performative writing, Autoethnography


A shuffle. Do you experience the following? Cigarette smoke and white cheddar popcorn. It’s all in my pretty little head. Crinkling paper bedsheets. Excess. A woman who swallowed a fly, leaves and steel. A polka-dot collar. Blink... Side effects are a misnomer. An artist’s manifesto. Non-linear. I want to be disjointed, unformed, messy, hurting, mad. Madness is both personal and political. Through an autoethnographic series of performative poetry and prose, Loose Leaf intends to evoke encounters with some of the affects, experiences, and politics of madness and psychiatrization. It works to offer both an embodied and theoretical engagement with one form of mad performance, and to compel readers to perform a form of mad reading.


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How to Cite

Eales, L. (2016). Loose Leaf. Canadian Journal of Disability Studies, 5(3), 58–76. https://doi.org/10.15353/cjds.v5i3.297